A new attitude

It's one week til my next appointment. Until then, I'm determined to be more positive. I've been inside my head lately, and it's been all negative. Lately, my thoughts have ranged from, "We will never have kids, to... Will we even be able to afford children after spending all our savings IF?".
I know I have plenty of things to be happy and thankful about, but lately I've been so wrapped up in my IF thoughts, I don't even think about much else.

I can say, with no hesitation, one thing that is a constant positive in my life is my family. I have a wonderful family - and I'm so grateful for that. I hear a lot about my friends' family drama, and I have a tough time relating.  I love my brothers and sisters, all eleven of them. We actually all get along. My twin sisters, who are closest in age to me, have been extremely supportive of my IF. My sister even researched my current RE through her medical connections, and gave him the green light. We always have each others' back. I love that!

My parents did an amazing job raising a brood of twelve. I don't know how they did it; dad was a teacher and mom was a SAHM. Although most of my younger years were full of hand-me-downs and sharing rooms, I never went without. To this day, my mom, at 79, amazes me. She would drop everything to help babysit my nieces and nephews, and never forgets to send birthday cards to arrive on the day of your birth (or as close as possible). Although I know I will never have nearly as many children as she had; as a mom, I want to be just like her.